My blog is not really a diary. Some secrets are so so dark it's best kept hidden.
Plus, i seem to be running out of time to blog these days. After spending one whole day at the office, all i want to do when i knock off is to fly back home to my baby... Sad thing was, for the past 2 days, Bria doesn't seem to want me.. Everytime I carry her, she starts to fuss and cry. Even though she was fine before i carried her. Then when C carried her, she went quiet. It got to me so bad that i cried yesterday. I know Bria probably doesn't know what is happening, but she hurt me so much but behaving this way. I missed her so much the entire day, left the office on the dot and actually rushed back home so i can kiss and hug her. before she takes her evening nap at 7plus. And she doesn't want me. I guess the situation yesterday got worse cause i had a really bad headache. I was looking for comfort in my baby, but i got rejection instead.
K didn't even know i was crying in my bedroom.. He kept yelling from the living room asking me to have my dinner. And when i didn't respond, he didn't even walk in to check on me.. Just continued to sit in front of his stupid computer, which is basically what he had been doing the entire day. Anyway, everything just accumulated, I broke down, quarreled with K (for paying more attention to his stupid computer than me and Bria) and felt miserable the entire night. This sounds silly, but i was actually angry at Bria for doing this to me. I was so sure that I will stay out after work since nobody wants me or would miss me at home anyway. But I still rush home to see my baby when the clock struck 530pm today.. =)
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