The Unbalanced Libra..

Last week, i hit the back of my head really hard inside my fridge.. i had bent down to get some apples from the fridge drawer at the bottom, but didn't get out far enough before i stood up, so I hit my head really hard..

Until now it still hurts.. = (

The stupid flu bug caught me today..This morning, K dropped me off at Breadtalk opposite my office to buy some bread for my breakfast.. i did not really have dinner the night before (just an apple and gazillion litres of water!), so i was literally starving..

When i reached the office, i started to gobble down my hot dog bun and a cuppa hot milo while clearing what little emails i had.. i was looking forward to the dinner and night of partying at Zouk with my colleagues tonight.. about an hour later, i started to sneeze couple of time.. at first i thought it was just the normal sneeze. However, when i started to sneeze continuously and had to go to the toilet to clear my running nose, i knew this was not gonna be good.. that was about 15 minutes to noon: lunchtime.

As there weren't any people to lunch with (either because they are going to places where i am not keen, or they were eating with their bosses), i decided to call K to see if he wanted to meet me for lunch.. Coincidentally, he was meeting F for lunch at Suntec city, so i decided to join them. At that time, i needed desperately to get out of the air conditioning that was giving my nose hell.

I took a 30 minute bus ride to Suntec and met up with K and F at Subway.. i didn't felt like eating Subway so K and I sat there and chatted with F instead while she ate.. we discussed about our Perth trip in October and the places of interest we would be going. At about 1pm, F had to go back to the office, so K and I went to search for a place for lunch.. I was starting to feel a little drowsy by then, and the nose was still running because i was in an air conditioned mall..

Eventually, K brought me to this porridge buffet place for lunch.. just what i needed: something hot and liquid for a sick girl! = ) The food was not very yummy but it was relatively cheap.. i kinda felt better after the porridge buffet, but still didn't feel like i was fit to go back to the office to work. So i decided to go home and get some rest.. That meant i had to tell my colleagues that i couldn't join them for dinner and partying.. I was really reluctant to do that, mainly because i had been the one to organize the gathering tonight. But also because i had wanted to go! But i knew i couldn't survive if i went in my sickly condition. K sent me home after lunch, he had packed his stuff so he could work from home.. when i reached home, i took some flu medication and went to sleep for the next 4 hours!

Woke up feeling slightly better but still weak, i got an sms from one of my colleagues informing that the dinner and partying had been postponed to next week.. i really hope my colleagues don't think i am taking revenge by pretending to be sick at the last minute! = (

K had a dinner appointment with his friends tonight, so i packed dinner home: my favourite fried noodles and honey lemon pearl bubble green tea! Watched the final disc of "24".. fantastic ending.. the stupid US President finally got brought to justice!

Tomorrow morning, K and I will be checking into York hotel.. my mother in law has arranged one night free accomodation for us; and in the evening, i will be having dinner with my college classmates and teacher to celebrate Teacher's Day.. it's been along time since we met, wonder how they all are now.. looks like it will be a relaxing but interesting weekend!
= )

There was another email from him announcing the arrival of a new member in our team, this guy from Guatemala.. Because our Brazilian affliate had been taken over by a local company in Brazil, one of our Brazilian guys had to leave the team, so this Guatemala guy will be his replacement.. Anyway, in this announcement / welcome email, my boss mentioned that we will get a chance to meet our new team member in Paris.. i was estatic! PARIS!! Initially, i thought maybe we will get to go to Guatemala since the new guy is based there, but oh well, i guess Paris is better ??!

My Colombian colleague happened to be online, so i chatted with him a bit regarding the trip.. he told me everything had been arranged and booked already by my colleague in Brussels.. I knew we will be having a team offsite meeting, cause we usually do so every year after the ardous P&B cycle, but i didn't knew when and where.. so i checked with my colombian colleague the dates, and he mentioned 3 - 5 Nov.. looking through my calender, my heart stopped for a few seconds: the dates clashed with my Perth trip!! My friends and I had booked tickets to Perth on 24 Oct and will only be landing in Singapore on 2 Nov @ 10pm.. which meant if i were to reach Paris on 3 Nov, i will have to fly direct from Perth, which will then make things super complicated...

SO.. i called K to discuss.. K was not too happy.. he wanted me to skip the meeting for a day, and arrive at Paris on 4 Nov instead.. it was either that, or come back to Singapore at 10pm and immediately fly to Paris on the 11pm flight.. but that would mean arriving at Paris at 6am on Monday just in time for my meeting.. which means no rest! I was reluctant because if possible, i want to spend the weekend in Paris!! I had been to Paris before but it was only for a one day stopover, and i really want to see more of this beautiful city if possible so... i told K that we had 2 options: 1: Change our return tickets one day earlier to 1 Nov, or 2: i will buy my own ticket to return 1 day earlier while the rest can stay in Perth for another day and fly back on 2 Nov.. K knew i had made up my mind so he got pissed and asked me to do whatever i wanted.. = ( SIGH!! Am i being too unreasonable? or selfish?? it's just one day difference !!

While fretting over what i should do, i saw my boss online and decided to chat with him and try my luck to see if the meeting can be postponed to a day later.. which was a good thing i did.. cause my boss told me that the meeting is actually on the 4th, not 3 Nov.. 3 Nov was a public holiday in the USA. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.. all the drama with K for nothing!! So now, everything's cool.. i will go for BOTH my Perth and my Paris.. boy this is gonna be a long long holiday for me!! I'm so excited that i went and told 2 of my colleagues about it.. dunno why i am so excited cause it's not the first time i'm going on an offsite meeting, and usually, i don't tell anybody cause i am worried they might get jealous and think lesser of me.. Actually, a bit regret telling the 2 colleagues now, but i just couldn't contain my excitement! = )

By the time K and I got home, it was already 1030pm... i had to set up my laptop, bathed and get ready within 30 minutes.. which i managed to, luckily..

On Tuesday, K and I invited our dear air steward friend B, for dinner at Carlton Hotel's Cafe Vic.. the cafe was having a dinner promotion where the 3rd person gets to dine for free for every 2 paying adults..
I was already staring into space at 4pm in the office, but K couldn't come and pick me up from work earlier as he had a business meeting and after that , he had to bring our super dirty (with cat paw prints on the boot) car to the car wash..

So i had to "stone" for about one and a half hours more before K came to pick me up and we headed to the hotel.. The food was not too bad.. fusion of both asian and western.. they had Japanese sushi , cold noodles and steamed egg too.. i liked the salad bar , and also the banana cake from the dessert corner.. thought the dessert section could be better cause there were too many durian flavoured stuff !! Yucks!

K, B and I chatted throughout our 2 1/2 hour dinner.. we planned our holidays for next year cause B had to ballot for his 2009 leave by end of next month.. We will most probably go to USA (west coast) in Sep / Oct, and then Bangkok for their annual "Water Festival" on 13th April.. so exciting!! = )

During the planning, K suddenly brought up to me the idea of moving to Kuala Lumpur for 1-2 years.. he was planning to set up a branch office there, and wanted me to move with him if possible.. So, the plan is once he has confirmed the decision to set up office in KL, i will ask my company if i can be posted there, if not, i will most probably resign next week.. we both think it's a good idea to get out of our "comfort zone" for a while since we are still young and childless, experience life outside our home country.. the ideal would be to move to USA (our other option), but that would be more difficult in terms of the criteria to stay in the US for more than one year.. According to their immigration laws, to stay in USA for an extended period, we would need to have a working visa, a student visa, invest US$1 million, or start a business that employes more than 10 employees.. hmmm... not very possible me thinks...

Oh well.. i guess we'll have to make do with KL for now.. K is already thinking of what car he will buy in KL, cause the cost of living there will be much lower than here.. who knows, maybe i'll become super proficient in the Malay language after 2 years there! = )

I had dinner at my parents' place after work yesterday.. my mom had not given the maid any instructions on what to cook (she usually does) cause she was busy during the day so.. here's what we had for dinner:

- Old cucumber soup (lao wang gua) with chicken
- Chicken in black soya sauce
- Deep fried chicken roll with seaweed
- Stir fried bitter gourd with prawns

I felt like it was a chicken buffet! Naturally, the maid was informed by both me AND my mom to cook a more "well-balanced" meal in future..

After dinner, we watched the Olympics Closing ceremony (replay) in Beijing.. again, another spectacular performance.. there was one segment where the ladies (think over 500 of them) performing wore costumes that were 95% made of tinkling silver bells, so whenever they moved or shook their hands, the whole stadium resounded with the tinkle of the bells.. then there was this part where the bell ladies formed human "lanes" and about 60 men came into the stadium cycling on a single big luminous wheel.. the bird's eye view of that segment was magnificent.. so pretty!
My dad seemed much better when i met him yesterday, haven't seen him for nearly 2 weeks already.. his left arm is still immobile, but he can walk around the house slowly on his own already.. and he didn't lose his temper yesterday..

I called my granny yesterday afternoon to check on her.. she sounded weak still.. but she said she felt better after eating the TCM dispensed by the sensei she visited on Monday.. i suspect this has something to do with the 7th Month.. typically, the old (and superstitious) people (like me!) believe that people are more prone to sickness during the 7th month of the Chinese lunar calender because of the wandering spirits surrounding us, so the "QI" or the aura of the humans will clash with the spirits, thereby causing us to feel unwell.. Sigh.. hopefully, once this month is over, my granny will get well !

Caught red-handed!! or should i say red-pawed!

Sickening felines.. the next time i see them on my car they're gonna get it..

When i first arrived at the hotel, i made myself occupied by making phone calls to my grandmother, my mother, and my sister in law.. so that nobody can come over to talk to me if they see me. = P but when i was in the ladies, one of my female colleagues saw me and just tried to make conversation.. she started by saying i looked very pale.. i didn't know how to respond, so i just say: "Is it?" Actually, she is quite a strange character in the sense that she often likes to make comments that i don't know how to respond to.. = )

During the tea break, i made phone calls again, but i wanted to check out the food, so i had to move out and linger in the crowd.. chit chatted a bit with those i wasn't pissed off at, but tried to avoid those i was still upset with.

About 3 hours later, the session ended.. my colleague's wife had gotten some free tickets to the fireworks display that night, so a group of us went to City Hall for some shopping and dinner before the fireworks.. I kinda asked them to accompany me to shop for K's birthday present (wanted to get a wallet for him).. so we shopped at Raffles City mall, and had dinner at Soup Spoon at the basement.. In the end, i didn't buy anything.. i did spotted a nice Mont Blanc wallet but thought it was too expensive..

Dinner was nice, i had clam chowder and ice lemon tea.. but we had a damn hard time trying to find seats.. i missed 2 opportunities to get seats, and there was this stupid waitress who kept misleading us with her advice to seats that were not available when we were already waiting for those with better potential!

At about 830pm, we proceeded to walk to Esplanade for the fireworks, the walk took longer than expected because of a human traffic jam in city link mall.. anyway, we finally arrived at the Marina Bay floating platform and took our VIP seats right in front of the stage.. = )

There were some fire eating performances, and kids from Tanjong Katong Secondary School band performed a few pieces for the audience.. the fireworks started at around 930pm.. it was a spectacular performance.. like the musical fountain in Sentosa, but with fireworks instead of water spraying out.. The fireworks was like exploding right in front of my face, it was so beautiful i couldn't help but smile to myself throughout the entire display! And the synchronization with the music was flawless.. How i wished K was there with me to watch the fireworks.. I think i don't want to watch any other fireworks after i've watch these so close up!

On the whole, Friday was a good day.. i think i kinda recovered from my depression after the day's events: Interesting seminar, good food, and beautiful fireworks for complete closure..

K bought this for me during our KL trip.. after my non-stop complaining that i need a new pair to protect my lasik-corrected eyes since i lost my Gucci pair in Fairfax.. hee hee.. = )

I just loved the little detail on the lens!!

My car's battery went flat today.. K and I woke up late and was halfway to the carpark when K realized he forgot to bring the car key.. so he run back to the house to get the keys..

When we reached the car, K pressed the remote and it didn't work, we thought the battery on the remote died so we used the key to unlock the car.. then we realized the car was not locked.. we freaked out at first, thinking that the car had been broken to.. it was only later that we realized the car battery had gone flat.. cause we couldn't even start he engine.

In the end, K and I had to take the train with those losers again.. losers not because they can't afford to buy a car.. but because of how inconsiderate these people are.. always refusing to move in a bit even though there is plenty of space, and the people outside are nearly face flat against the door!

Fortunately, since it was quite late, we did not meet the peak hour morning crowd in the train.. it was a cool and spacious ride all the way to my office.

By the time i reached the office it was nearly 11am.. but i didn't care, cause i had worked until 1 am yesterday night!! as long as my boss knows then it's okay.. don't care what other people think..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qLfHnWTelik

Jie Kou

翻著我們的照片 想念若隱若現

去年的冬天 我們笑得很甜

看著妳哭泣的臉, 對著我說再見

來不及聽見　妳已走得很遠

也許妳已經放棄我　也許已經很難回頭

我知道是自己錯過　請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我

就算是我不懂　能不能原諒我

請不要把分手當作妳的請求

我知道堅持要走 是妳受傷的藉口

請妳回頭　我會陪妳一直走到最後

就算沒有結果　我也能夠承受

我知道妳的痛　是我給的承諾

妳說給過我縱容　沉默是因為包容

如果要走　請妳記得我　如果難過　請妳忘了我

Everytime i sing it, i get so emotional i will start to tear.. Jay Chou rocks!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUNmrwDqweY

歌曲：搁浅
歌手：周杰伦
专辑：七里香

歌词：

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容哭
过却无法掩埋歉疚
风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔
暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我
我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在
我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开...

K didn't send me to work today so i had to squeeze with all these losers in the MRT.. hated it..


I'm counting down 3 more days to K's birthday.. and i still don't know what to get for him.. he is looking for a watch.. i went shopping for one today, but all the watches he liked are super expensive one.. = (


He mentioned casually once he would like to see me in the infamous Star Wars Princess Leia costume below.. haha.. that's going to be quite a challenge! Then today, when he picked me up from work, he asked me to cook something for him on Sunday.. which is pretty silly of him cause the past few times i cooked it was disastrous!


Sigh.. i shall ask my best friend for some bright ideas when we go to gym tomorrow.. = )

The government has announced a whole list of incentives to encourage couples to make more babies.. 4 months maternity leave lah, 6 days unpaid child sick leave lah, subsidies for IVF etc. etc..

This cannot come at a more appropriate timing for me since K and I are trying. In fact, we had gone to SGH last week to do a thorough check up just to make sure we are both healthy and can make babies the natural way.. i checked the costs of IVF (just in case we need it), and it costs a minimum of $7000 each time. WTF??!! Not only is raising a kid expensive, MAKING one is bloody steep too!!!

I had lunch with my mentor yesterday, and he was sharing with me how he and his wife had been trying for 6 years, but to no avail.. apparently, they had spent like $15000 once on IVF and it still didn't work.. i was quite surprised he would share such personal information with me, cause he wasn't the type who seemed like he would do that.. other than that, the conversation was very formal, i was being careful not to talk to much cause he was known to stab people in the back, gossip type.. Anyway, we had Shin Kushiya Japanese for lunch.. after which i suggested Ben & Jerry's for dessert. Which i regretted, cause he didn't order ice cream, and i had to pay for mine myself.. stupid! = (

Went for my 2nd facial session today.. i had stupidly signed up a $3000 package with Beyong Beauty 2 weeks ago, in the midst of all my depression and break out.. i guessed i needed some retail therapy, and i hated the stupid pimples on my face!

My therapist was a China lady, and we kinda chatted during the session.. she told me that China had clinched 67 medals at the Olympics, of which 41 were Gold medals.. i was impressed! There was a point where she had applied the mask on my face as the last step, and then she left the room.. i started to feel really hot below my back after a while.. and thought i was having a fever or something. Turned out she had switched on the heater below the mattress / bed without telling me... gave me a fright. what with the 7th month and all! = I

This afternoon, one of my colleagues was giving out petrol vouchers for this station in Geylang.. she was jokingly asking everyone if they wanted to go Geylang together.. then when she asked Chua Kin, he pointed to me and said this Xiao Jie stay in Geylang so you can give her.. i then replied in jest asking him to mind his language.. that was probably the longest sentence i have uttered in the 2 days since i've been back in the office!

Just finished clearing some emails and chatting with my collegues from Fairfax and Colombia.. had a crisis earlier but now it's been resolved.. thank godness! Now i can go to bed.. Tomorrow will be another long and extremely quiet day in the office.. = (

A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day...
30,000 to a man's 15,000.
The wife replied, 'The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men...
The husband then turned to his wife and asked, 'What?'

K and I went to this bistro bar called Alexis in The Gardens shopping mall for lunch yesterday..

The place had a nice ambience and simple yet chic decor.. what i like most was the design they had for their table mats.. it's really just a piece of paper, but they had like shapes printed on the paper to indicate the spots to place the cutlery.. so when the wait staff sets the table for us, she places the cutlery and plates in the exact spot right where it should be. Cute right??

During our KL trip, we went to this place that was reputed for crabs..

They served crabs that are cooked in 31 different ways!! There was Kong Pao Crab, black stout crab, steamed crab with chinese wine, creamy butter crab etc.. Basically, the whole place was full of crabs.. (pun intended)

We had the black stout crab and creamy butter crab on the first night, then chilli crab on the 2nd night for dinner.. it was super delicious, and the fried buns were heavenly!! yum yum.. = )

The chain of events that occurred these few weeks made me realized that i have the best hubby in the world..

Last week, when my colleagues pissed me off and i broke down in the office.. i called K at the taxi stand.. I had packed my bags and left the office, and was waiting for a cab to bring me home.

When K answered the phone, i told him i was going home.. he had just dropped me off at my office an hour ago. Immediately, he asked me what was wrong.. when i heard his concerned voice, i don't know why i just broke down and cried again.. telling him i was angry with my colleagues and i couldn't stand the sight of them so i wanted to go home. I was just totally wrecked. K rushed down and was in front of me within the next 15 minutes.. he had a lot of work to do , and i think he just reached his office for barely half an hour when i called him.. i thought that was really sweet.. at that time, i really needed someone who cared and did not take me for granted.

So much has happened recently: all the quarreling with K, my feeling depressed, the fun we had during KL trip, working together from home with K last week.. it's too difficult for me to pen it down in words, but all i can say is i'm glad i have him.. His birthday is this coming Sunday, and i'm still trying to think of what to do for him.. what a loser wife i am.. i think i should burn in hell for treating him so badly..

We went bowling on the 2nd day of our trip with the cousins (and boyfriend).. loved the funky bowling shoes and the colorful bowling balls.. nice right??!








There were the usual strange characters though.. we had this family who didn't book the lanes (think they were too poor to pay or something). So they just sat there beside us where there was an empty lane, and their little toodler was just rolling the bowling balls into the lanes.. it was really distracting for us, cause the balls kept rolling into our lanes.. and i nearly trip over one of the balls when i turned back after i had thrown my ball. Luckily Keson run over in time to pick up the ball. The irritating thing is the father just watched without doing anything to control the toodler! This was despite the exasperated looks that all of us shot at him.. What an idiot..

Then there was this rude Malay boy who just walked over to our lane, took one of our bowling balls without even asking, and walked back to his lane. I just stared at him with my mouth open.. it was as if we were invisible; not there at all. What AUDACITY!

Other than these weird people, we had fun.. i was the top scorer in the first round, and second last in the second round.. talk about being consistent.. = P

I haven't been back to the office for a week now.. tomorrow will be the first time i go to the office in 7 days..

Last Tuesday was supposed to be Sports Day for me and my colleagues.. but instead of going for a game of badminton and basketball after work, i went to the office for barely an hour before i broke down in the toilet and cried for 10 minutes, packed my bags and left for home.. i just couldn't bear to be in the office for another minute. I was hurt, angry and totally disappointed.

What happened was actually nothing unusual. In fact, it was not the first time it had occurred. Then again, perhaps it is PRECISELY the fact that this has occurred too many times that i got upset. Everything probably just accumulated and exploded inside me. And it didn't help that this came at a time when i was feeling depressed..

When i reached the office in the morning, i had settled down and went around asking who was going for the badminton and basketball session after work.. i had a total of 5 people cancelling on me last minute. In the end, there were only 3 people left including me. I saw no point in that so i cancelled the whole thing.. i had people telling me they have to go and buy a fridge that night, as if that was the only night they could buy it, and that they didn't know they had to buy the fridge only at the last minute.. then i had 2 people telling me they had to travel the next morning so they didn't want to go. As if they didn't know in advance that they had to go overseas for a business trip, or what time their flights were.. and then i had one telling me he had to go celebrate his mother in law's birthday. As if his mother in law threw a last minute birthday celebration for herself and only informed him last minute.. and there were people who just told me they couldn't make it, LAST MINUTE. Of course, there was the ultimate kind, those who cannot even be bothered to inform me whether they are going AT ALL.. In fact, everytime i ask, he will give me a vague answer, and only let me know on the day itself, IF AT ALL.

I have had people cancelling on me last minute, but not so many at the same time. I was pissed off.. and totally hurt. Al was talking to me at my cubicle when this happened.. I was relating to him and telling him i didn't know why i bother to arrange all these sports sessions when nobody appreciates my efforts.. He asked me a very good question: "Then why ARE you doing it?"

Truth is, i was lonely.. not being in Sales means no meetings with colleagues in the office, no attending of training together at nice hotels.. no proximity to people i can chat easily with etc. etc. My efforts in organizing all these sports session was just a lame way of trying to bond with my colleagues, to have some fun.. in the hope that i can re-create the kind of environment i enjoyed in my previous job at the airport. Those were the days when i actually felt like i was in one big family.. when my colleagues will sneak past the boss's office so we can all go to gym together after work..

So silly old me, desperate to be a groupie, went to volunteer myself to organize these sports sessions every week. I had to book the badminton courts, making sure majority can make it on that particular day before i booked. Then on that day, chase after people to pack up and leave, then coordinate and ensure everyone has transport to go to the community center, bring extra rackets and shuttle cocks.. then when basketball came into the picture, i had to call and ensure the basketball courts were available at the community centers where we had booked the badminton courts, at the time when we will finish playing badminton. I even bothered to inform a colleague who had left the company when we were playing so he could join us if he wanted. All these for WHAT??? Nobody appreciates it, NOBODY says thank you to me.. They all just take me for granted. It was like OH, we will just have a badminton court waiting for us every week, so whether we go or don't go doesn't matter.. some of them don't even bother to buy their own rackets, it just goes to show just how committed they are. It's like they don't have a sense of committment or a sense of responsibility that they should put it in their calenders every week to go.. to think i send out invitation at least one week in advance.. And i still have people cancelling last minute with stupid excuses, or ignoring me totally. To me, it's an appointment in my calender, once i commit, i will try my best to go.. I even cancelled off my facial session to go for badminton. Not because i was the organizer so i had to go, but i felt responsible to the group and didn't think it was nice to cancel last minute on them. Yet they do it to me like nobody's business.. taking me for granted. Even though it's a weekly thing, doesn't make it any less important as any other appointment! To think i even bothered to pay for the badminton court bookings all this while with my own god-damned money! It was only recently that i started collecting money from all of them. Which i totally regreted. Cause now i have to continue to book until the money is used up.. I am so tempted to just stop all these and return them the balance funds! What's the point of doing all these for a bunch of inconsiderate people?! I don't see how I benefit at all from all these crap!

And you know what pisses me off as well? The fact that they hijacked my badminton with the basketball.. i mean , i enjoy playing basketball as well, but i guess i am just upset that now, everybody just seems more excited to playing basketball than badminton.. it makes me feel like they are just entertaining me so they play badminton.. but actually, they can't wait for the one hour to be over so they can hit the basketball courts. It's just the whole vibe that i am getting.. i feel they are taking me for granted, they are probably laughing at me for my desperate attempts to be close to them..

I've decided it's not worth it. After all, they will never be my real friends.. and i am getting tired trying to be friends with them; and also risk looking like i have nothing to do at work but organize badminton sessions and booking courts online. After all, they are not the only ones who are busy. I am too, so looks like it's best for me to just leave them on their own, in their own little "Sales" clique.. where there will be no Business Support analyst coming to keep bugging them on whether they will be available for the next badminton session.

Since i've collected their money, and it's not so nice to return them the money (i can't believe i am still thinking of being nice to them after how they have hurt my feelings), i shall continue making the court bookings. Whether they go or not, it's no longer any of my business, and i won't give a damn..

10 August 08 was in stark contrast to the 9th Aug. I woke up at 3pm, still sober from last night's partying.. K was not home when i woke up.. we had not reconciled yet.. but the National Day dinner party at my house was still on.. K had bought lunch and left it on the bar counter.. it was one of my favorite food : Peanut Pancake!!

He came back for a while, we talked a bit.. he asked how i felt and if i still wanted our friends to come over.. i said it was up to him.. he then left shortly to buy some last minute food for the party.. we were supposed to make baked potato rosti with meat, but there was no time for that then.. about 3 hours later.. our friends started streaming in..

The dress code for the party was supposed to be red and white.. but only myself and my air steward buddy (whom i can always count on!!) came properly attired.. = (

My best girl friend F, as usual, ever defiant, came in a turqoise blue dress.. She did the same thing during our Christmas party last year.. everyone came dressed in red or green.. but our dear F was the only one who came in all Black..

It was a night of feasting and laughing. We had cold pasta salad, roast chicken meat, toasted crispy seawood chicken roll, sausages, and a giant size chocolate birthday cake..

After dinner, we played Ninentendo Wii.. EK had gone through all the trouble to borrow the console from his cousin.. We played Boxing, Tennis, Super Mario , and laughed till our sides ached.. halfway through all the playing and laughing, K and I made up.. = )

That night was the first time in many weeks i actually laughed so hard and really felt happy.. i had good food and the good company of friends i truly treasure and love..

Here are some photos of the birthday cake that B bought.. when we lighted the 43 candles, we were all standing around contemplating whether to sing a birthday song for our country or not.. in the end, we decided it was quite dumb to do so.. So instead, we just counted to three and blew the candles together.. it was a nice, warm feeling..

That night, i had all my cake, AND ate it.

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We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
I said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

As of now, K and I still haven't reconciled.. but we're going ahead with the party later..

Woke up at 3pm today.. and realized that i have 3 new pimples.. i am beginning to turn into a freak show!!

I just wish all these crap would stop.. i want to feel HAPPY and NORMAL again..

After dinner at my parent's place yesterday, i went home.. in my fit of anger, i had told K that i will not be going home, and that i won't be at home for the party today either.. i was actually having a really bad migraine, and had wanted to just go home and sleep. BUT the "devil" side of me won and i didn't..

So i went home, changed, and went out partying at St James... i had every intention to get myself pissed drunk. It has been a LONG LONG time since i last went partying.

Some friends of mine had booked a karaoke room (it was someone's birthday) and had invited me over.. i'm not really a karaoke person but i thought what the heck.. there was nothing to lose and i really wasn't in the mood to go home.. there was singing, games, and plenty of hard liquor..

Unfortunately, i didn't dance as much i would have loved to last night.. cause none of the group wanted to dance, and only one girlfriend accompanied me to the dance floors.. we went to Bellini room first. There was a performance and 2 dudes were asked to go up to the stage to dance.. the singer kinda unbutton this poor guy's shirt halfway through the dance, and the crowd went wild.. the guy had like rock hard abs! And he was cute. SOME eye candy i must say..

Eventually, i didn't get drunk. A bit high though, but it was too late, cause by the time i was high (about 3 AM), the group wanted to head back.. They had succeeded in making the birthday boy 70% drunk (which was a tough feat cause he is a good drinker). The poor guy was so red in the face, and he was like mumbling away.. but he still can sms on his phone. everytime i look at him, i laughed.

I had a pretty good time laughing more than dancing yesterday night.. And oh, i heard the worst pick up line ever.. these guys tried to pick my friend up yesterday night at the dance floor.. and his pick up line to her was : "Are you from China?" WTF??!!

My friend was totally pissed off.. she stared at him and said : "No i am Singaporean". She pointed to the National Flag tattoo she had on her arm (from attending the parade earlier) and said to the guy : "See this? SINGAPOREAN!!"

It was hilarious.. that was not the worst.. the same guy then came up to me, told me that he thought my friend was beautiful, and then asked me if i was from China.. i was so bloody tempted to step on his toes with my 3 inch heels.. not because i felt it was an insult to be seen as a china girl (since most of them are beauties!), but simply because i can't believe he can be so lame!! MY GOD~