It's been a week since K went for his reservice in Thailand. Feels like a year to me..
These few days have been a mess.. Bria fell from my bed twice. Once she landed on her hands and feet. She was sleeping on my bed, so i left her in the room as usual and went to do my things.. Next thing i know, i heard a thud and her cries. My heart jumped out when i saw her on the floor and crying. I quickly carried her up and rocked her gently to soothe her, and she fell asleep within 2 minutes. The second time was not as good. She was playing on my bed, executing her new found skill of going from crawling to sitting up again and again. I turned around for one second to take something from my bedside drawer. Next thing i knew, i saw her roll over the edge of my bed with the bolster, and she landed on the floor HEAD FIRST. I can never erase the look on her face from my mind. It was so sooooo heart breaking. Her eyes was tight shut from pain and fright and her mouth open as if she was screaming but no sound came out. That lasted for a few seconds before the crying was heard. And it didn't stop even after i carried her and rocked her. I cried with her, and kept apologizing to her for not taking good care of her. Now i really can understand the meaning of "heart broken"!
Then yesterday, i spoke to C about some complaints i heard from my mom in law about her watching TV and not taking care of Bria 100%. She started to cry. This girl really cannot receive negative feedback, everytime like that! Sigh.. really wish K is here with me. These few days is like a big mess for me. I have been so busy preparing for this 2 day training course at SAFRA, and today was the start of the training. And it was a mess as well. Let's just say that SAFRA did not do a good job preparing my room and the set up, and the trainer was terrible at connecting with the audience. Sigh... There is another session tomorrow, but the attendance is terrible. Only 10 people when i had planned for 30.. even the food is too late to cancel now..
And as if it's not bad enough, i am developing a severe cold sore on my lips. Both ends of my lips are swollen and cracking like hell. Even eating is a chore, cause i can't open my mouth too wide without feeling pain.
I am SOOO bloody glad that this week is a short week, and i have the long weekend to rest and relax with my baby!
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