The Unbalanced Libra..

My in laws came over for mahjong last Friday, and as usual, everyone got excited over Bria..

While me, K, my mom in law and sister in law played mahjong, my father in law played with Bria. He was reading newspapers one second, and carrying and touching Bria the next.  I got quite upset.  Tried to hint very subtly to K to ask his dad to wash his hands, but i think K didn't catch my hint.  After all, it's quite difficult for me to hint with everyone at the mahjong table!

I really really dislike it when people touch or hold my baby without clean hands. What's worse is when i see it but i cannot say or do anything!!  Hai... Maybe i should consider putting up a sign in my house that says "Please wash your hands before handling Bria", or write this on a post- it note and stick it on Bria ... = )

I met up with my colleague from the US last week for dinner in Raffles City.. We had so much to catch up on!  Office gossip mostly.. haha..  Sigh, until now, no one knows which department or position i will be in when i return to work next month.  Last week, i got a letter from my company.  When i saw the logo on he envelope, for some reason i was half afraid to open it, cause i was wondering if it might be a letter telling me i have been fired.. haha.. Haven't been back to work for so long, maybe boss don't need me to go back anymore! But fortunately, it was just my income tax computation.. = ) 

Anyway, while chatting with my US colleague, she mentioned that she and her brother are only 11 months apart.  Haha.. apparently, her mother couldn't wait too long before having another baby. Plus, her first baby was born through C-section loh!  Super "on" right?

K has been wanting to try for another one.. But i really don't want another baby 11 months younger than Bria!  Anyway, it's already too late for that now.. haha.. But i don't mind having another baby, provided the whole process is as smooth and easy as Bria.  Maybe i should go back to New Zealand again to re-create the same pregnancy and child birth experience!  Sigh.. i was just looking through all my photos recently, and realized how much i miss traveling and how much i miss New Zealand!!! I want to go back there again!

I love dancing with Bria these days! 

Recently, I got bored of listening to classical music on CDs and 92.8FM, so i switched to either Class 95 or Power 98 and then sing and dance to the songs with Bria in my arms..  She always falls asleep after that. Perfect.  Not only do i get to exercise, baby gets to sleep too! = )

I bought 3 more sets of clothing for Bria few weeks ago.  Yesterday, she wore this green dress from Carter's which i bought.  And incidentally, the Mon to Sun socks that K's sister bought was green color for Saturday.  So matching right!! = )  Bria looks SOOO cute in her all green get up!  I couldn't stop kissing her after i bathed and dressed her in this!

I am sooo tired these days... Dad's helper was sent back 2 weeks ago, and since then, i have been buying lunch for him everyday.  Sometimes K will drive me there or pick me up to head home, or both.  But recently, i have been commuting to and fro on my own. Plus the weather is so damn hot these days it's really making me weary.  Don't know how long more i can do this.  Everyday buy food for him, travel there under the hot sun, eat with him, wash the dishes, cut fruits, make milo for his teabreak.. really like part time maid leh!

Plus, i am counting down to the day i go back to work.  I really REALLY don't feel like going back.  Words cannot explain how much I can't bear to part with my baby for 8 hours a day everyday in 1 month's time.  

My time to stay home with Bria and play with her are dwindling, and yet everyday i still have to go out under the hot sun!  It's not that i am complaining because i am not filial.  I know it's my father i am taking care of.  But i am really getting tired. And i want to be with my baby.  I SO don't want to leave the house everyday because Bria is so awake and playful during lunch time and I SO wanna play with her!!  Plus, by the time i get home, she is taking her afternoon nap so i don't get to cuddle her either.  But just because i am the only one in the family who is on leave and "very free", the task is assigned to me.  Sometimes i think it's not fair.   Plus i am going back to work soon so someone has to take care of Dad.  And that's what everyone is getting stressed over now.  

So everyday for the past 2 weeks, I have been rushing to and fro my dad's house and missing all the chances to bathe and cuddle my baby when she is most awake.  Then when i get home, i have to research on all the options for my Dad when i go back to work such as home help, home meal delivery services, even nursing home, call them one by one to ask etc.. And all these are also being done when Bria is awake also, so i don't get to play with her again.  And I am less than 1 month away from going back to work.  From seeing her face only through a photograph, not able to touch her, kiss her, cuddle her and hear her make her baby noises for at least 8 hours a day.  If i have to work OT, it will be worse.  I just broke down in tears thinking about this.

All I want to do now is to treasure and spend what little time i have with my baby before i start working.  NOTHING ELSE.  I am tired.

K and I headed out to Clarke Quay this evening for this monthly outdoor Jazz concert at Clarke Quay.

We ended up eating at a Mexican cafe but alfresco style so we could listen to the music.  But soon got bored of it cause there were so many people, and it was really noisy so we couldn't really enjoy the Jazz itself.  So we went shopping at Liang Court.. I bought some udon, sauce and edamame..  Will try and whip up a Japanese lunch next week! = )

K and I started and ended CNY with feasting.  On Saturday, we had a extended family gathering at my in law's place.  K's relatives from his Dad's side came over and my mom in law made nasi lemak for dinner.  We played mahjong and i lost again.. Super suay leh, so far this Chinese New Year i've lost money in every mahjong session!  Looks like i cannot gamble this year lah!

After dinner, K and I brought Bria to Kel and Carol's house to celebrate Kel's birthday party.  It was a last minute invitation from Carol, so i didn't buy any birthday present for Kel.  Met some of my EM colleagues there, and felt a bit awkward.  After all, it's been a really long time since i last met and interacted with these people.  Another minor reason why i don't want to go back to work anymore.  Actually, if possible, i would like to go back to the airport to work.  I was really happy then. I still missed my colleagues and the people there.   And the food! Plus the boss likes me.. = ) The only thing that sucked is the super low salary.  Otherwise I'll go back there anytime.

 On Sunday, K and I joined some relatives from my Mom in law's side for buffet dinner at Olive Tree Intercontinental.  The restaurant was having some promotion where they will give you a discount of your age if you are born in the year of the Tiger, up to 60% per table.  So K's 84 year old grandma went with us.  It was quite a sight at the restaurant.  There were many tables of more than 10 people, and each table had a really old person sitting there, most probably all born in the year of the Tiger.   Haha.. typical Singaporeans! = )

We were supposed to attend the Miata AGM after our dinner that night, but headed home instead cause the AGM was over by the time our dinner ended.  K kena saboh-ed and was voted Secretary for this year's ex-co...  

We drove to East Coast after our dinner and walked / jogged off some calories from our heavy dinner.  My first real exercise since i had Bria!  It felt really good and i couldn't sleep at night because of the work out.  The next day, my muscles started to ache.  Sigh.. I really need to exercise and lose all my fats before April when i go back to work!!  Plus, need to slim down before our Penang trip in April.. otherwise, no need to wear bikini liao.. haha...