The Unbalanced Libra..

I've been having strange nightmares recently.  Few days ago, i dreamt that i was being chased by a ghost.  But i could run really fast in my dream, which meant i probably weren't pregnant.

Then yesterday night, i dreamt that i was bitten by a huge furry black spider while i was at an animal museum / zoo.  The freakin' spider just flung itself on my shoulder and bit me near my neck area.  In my dream, i started to imagine things after the spider bit me, that my baby will be poisoned, that the baby inside my tummy became a black spider and so on..  Basically i totally freaked out in my dream.  It was so scary.

I wonder why i am having such strange dreams recently.  Maybe because i haven't been too happy.  I mean i'm not unhappy, just not VERY happy, and extremely bored.  These days, nothing seems to make me happy, except thinking about Bria and how soon i will get to meet her.  Then again, THAT makes me nervous too.  I need something or someone to make me happy, but i don't know who or how or what.  Maybe i need to have a party at my house, but i am too tired to organize one.. And i definitely am not in the right physical state to go to one.. SIGH....