I think i am suffering from ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). Feel as if the whole world is ignoring me.. >_<
Actually, the definition of of ADD is a condition whereby the person's attention span is shorter than normal. For me, it's not so much about my attention span, but rather people's attention on me.. i feel like i am suffering from a deficit, i.e. not getting much attention recently, and hence the ADD..
ANYWAY.. not sure why but i've just been feeling pretty down recently.. sometimes even on the verge of crying.. Maybe it's the fact that my face broke out, maybe it's because all the nice people at work are leaving or have left, so not much people around to make me laugh (or cry) anymore.. Or MAYBE, i am just looking for drama. I attended this seminar once, and learnt that most people fall into the trap of the "Drama Hook". When things in life get too smooth sailing and there is nothing much happening, we tend to look for trouble or do things that will create drama in our lives, kinda like stir things up a little bit so life is not so boring. I think i am a victim of that. Which can be dangerous!!
Frankly, i'm quite affected by the fact that some of my colleagues are leaving.. one has already left, and he was the live of the party.. one of those few around who are really genuine and plays no political games at work. I was really pissed off at the bad timing of the stupid P&B, cause the stupid datelines made me really busy during his last few days at work, and so i couldn't really chat or have tea drinking sessions with him as much as i would like to..
The other colleague who is leaving end of this month, well.. let's just say we used to be close.. not so much anymore, which is probably another reason why i'm suffering from ADD, depression etc.. He used to send me to work almost everyday when i was based in the super "Ulu" Pioneer Road office.. missed those days when we were doing the handover and visiting customers together. Now another female has taken over my place with him.. they even get to travel to Malaysia together.. = (
In 2 weeks time, the entire Sales team will be going for a 5 day Sales training course at Hilton Hotel.. i tried to smuggle myself in as well, but to no avail.. can't help but think how much fun they will all be having during the 5 days, and i'm not part of it.. ARGHHHHH!!!
Ok i think i'm freaking out.. i need to get a grip!! I need some drama! I need to strike the $8million TOTO grand draw tomorrow or i'll probably die from ADD..
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