I broke down just now.. while having a discussion with K.
It's my first one, and i guess everything just accumulated and i just exploded.. At that moment, all i wanted was to go home.. But i am feeling okay now..
This morning, K and I went to the farm to help Tony. When we first arrived, Tony had mentioned to K that he had intended to hire some paid help on the farm, but since the 2 of us had arrived, he figured we could help out instead. At first, i was not too happy with that. Cause that is not in accordance with the rules of the Global Freeloaders community. The purpose of the Global Freeloaders network is to host people for free. The host is not supposed to ask the guest to work for them in exchange for accommodation. Then again, K mentioned that the host is also not obliged to provide meals for his guests as well. Just provide accommodation. We had a few meals at Tony and Donna's place since we arrived. So I guess we had to work to "repay" them for our meals.
Yesterday's dinner went well. K and I made 6 packets of hot and spicy instant korean noodles, and fried butter chicken with potato cubes. The noodles didn't taste as nice as the last time we did it at Linda's place, but the chicken was delicious. And the family liked it. At least that was what they said.
Last night, the stupid Jack Russell came into my bedroom and peed on the carpet. I was so pissed. I think the dog doesn't like me, cause i don't like her either. I largely just ignore it, cause it always barks a lot. And sometimes, i call her a stupid dog.. haha. After last night's peeing incident, i got even more pissed off at the dog. Feel like kicking it now everytime i see her.
Anyway, K and I did about 4-5 hours of work at the flower farm today.. It was easy work (brainless).. but physically tiring. We were asked to pick some nice looking stems of leaves ("Globets" or something) by cutting them with a sharp plier scissors. First of all, the walk to the farm was exhausting cause it was uphill. We had to climb over some electric string fencing that were used to keep out the animals, and over a metal fence that could not be opened. We also had to walk pass a big cow and a bull grazing on the grass, and the stupid cow followed so closely behind me i got scared and didn't even dare to turn around to look back. I just kept walking as fast as i could, frightened to run in case the cow chased after me.
And then there was the picking. We had to spot the nice ones, pick them, and then using our bare hands, strip off the leaves from the bottom of the stems so we could hold each stem in our hand. And some of the stems were so thick it was difficult to cut. And we had to pull out all the stubborn weeds with our bare hands too. And i was silly enough to wear my beige suede boots to work. So now they are all dirty. After the first round of picking, we went to the shed and helped Tony bunch up the stems with rubber bands. My hands are now all sore and dry from all the picking, pulling and bunching.
Around 12pm, we headed back to the house for lunch. At least, Tony said that. But when we reached home, there was no food. Tony just had a plain sandwich. I didn't want to eat bread agaain for lunch cause i had it for breakfast, so K and I drove out to the town center and had Subway. And we had the cheapest one. Tuna. Cause it was the Subway of the Day. Our sub was cut into 3. We had 2 and K said to leave one portion for dinner. We then went to the supermarket to buy ham and cheese for tomorrow's breakfast cause i can't take toast with butter anymore..
The work continued after lunch. This time, Tony drove us on his big motorbike to another garden where the leaves were not as perfect for picking. K and I sat inside the same container where we put the flowers and were pulled along behind the motorcyle as we rode from garden to garden. As we rode past the bushes, i was hit by some leaves and branches. K stretched out his hand to protect me. I learnt to avoid them the next time round.. At the not so perfect garden, we started picking.. After about 1 hour, Tony asked us to pick out the bad ones instead, and cut them off. Now that was the challenging task cause a lot of bad ones are bended and at the bottom of the bushes, so i had to bend a lot to cut them off. And along the way, both K and I were pricked by some wild thorns cause we didn't wear gloves. And also because Tony had told us there were no thorns on the leaves. Sure enough, there weren't. The torns came from somewhere else among the bushes. Not from the leaves we were picking.
At about 3pm, the sky started to turn cloudy, and it got really windy. I was cold, and my back was aching, and i wanted to go back. But we had to wait for Tony. He finally came about 4pm. We went back to the house. And K and I had our dinner. For me, it was the leftover subway, cookies and potato chips. That was at 5pm.
After dinner, we watched a bit of boring TV. Then K and i went into the bedroom and had our discussion. I told him i couldn't stand it anymore. I asked him why we are still living like that and suffering, when he is already so sure i am pregnant. He said before that if i was pregnant, we could spend all the money here and then go home. I broke down and cried. Because my back was aching, my dinner sucked.. My hands were sore, the bedroom was cold, and i was going to have another restless night cause i won't be able to sleep well in the cold and super soft (with no support) bed.
K started searching for paid accomodation elsewhere. We will most probably move out of this farm within the next few days. I am definitely not going to work on the farm anymore. And i told K we will not have any meals at the house anymore, in case Tony wants us to work to "repay" him for the meals.
I really hope this feeling inside me will fade away soon. There is only so much good food or good accomodation that I can get with my money, but i cannot change the weather. And i cannot get my favourite Singapore food here.
My stomach seems to be getting bigger, not sure if it's because i am getting fatter from eating bread and potatoes, or i am pregnant.. Still no symptoms yet though...
ARGGGHHHHH!!!!!
It's my first one, and i guess everything just accumulated and i just exploded.. At that moment, all i wanted was to go home.. But i am feeling okay now..
This morning, K and I went to the farm to help Tony. When we first arrived, Tony had mentioned to K that he had intended to hire some paid help on the farm, but since the 2 of us had arrived, he figured we could help out instead. At first, i was not too happy with that. Cause that is not in accordance with the rules of the Global Freeloaders community. The purpose of the Global Freeloaders network is to host people for free. The host is not supposed to ask the guest to work for them in exchange for accommodation. Then again, K mentioned that the host is also not obliged to provide meals for his guests as well. Just provide accommodation. We had a few meals at Tony and Donna's place since we arrived. So I guess we had to work to "repay" them for our meals.
Yesterday's dinner went well. K and I made 6 packets of hot and spicy instant korean noodles, and fried butter chicken with potato cubes. The noodles didn't taste as nice as the last time we did it at Linda's place, but the chicken was delicious. And the family liked it. At least that was what they said.
Last night, the stupid Jack Russell came into my bedroom and peed on the carpet. I was so pissed. I think the dog doesn't like me, cause i don't like her either. I largely just ignore it, cause it always barks a lot. And sometimes, i call her a stupid dog.. haha. After last night's peeing incident, i got even more pissed off at the dog. Feel like kicking it now everytime i see her.
Anyway, K and I did about 4-5 hours of work at the flower farm today.. It was easy work (brainless).. but physically tiring. We were asked to pick some nice looking stems of leaves ("Globets" or something) by cutting them with a sharp plier scissors. First of all, the walk to the farm was exhausting cause it was uphill. We had to climb over some electric string fencing that were used to keep out the animals, and over a metal fence that could not be opened. We also had to walk pass a big cow and a bull grazing on the grass, and the stupid cow followed so closely behind me i got scared and didn't even dare to turn around to look back. I just kept walking as fast as i could, frightened to run in case the cow chased after me.
And then there was the picking. We had to spot the nice ones, pick them, and then using our bare hands, strip off the leaves from the bottom of the stems so we could hold each stem in our hand. And some of the stems were so thick it was difficult to cut. And we had to pull out all the stubborn weeds with our bare hands too. And i was silly enough to wear my beige suede boots to work. So now they are all dirty. After the first round of picking, we went to the shed and helped Tony bunch up the stems with rubber bands. My hands are now all sore and dry from all the picking, pulling and bunching.
Around 12pm, we headed back to the house for lunch. At least, Tony said that. But when we reached home, there was no food. Tony just had a plain sandwich. I didn't want to eat bread agaain for lunch cause i had it for breakfast, so K and I drove out to the town center and had Subway. And we had the cheapest one. Tuna. Cause it was the Subway of the Day. Our sub was cut into 3. We had 2 and K said to leave one portion for dinner. We then went to the supermarket to buy ham and cheese for tomorrow's breakfast cause i can't take toast with butter anymore..
The work continued after lunch. This time, Tony drove us on his big motorbike to another garden where the leaves were not as perfect for picking. K and I sat inside the same container where we put the flowers and were pulled along behind the motorcyle as we rode from garden to garden. As we rode past the bushes, i was hit by some leaves and branches. K stretched out his hand to protect me. I learnt to avoid them the next time round.. At the not so perfect garden, we started picking.. After about 1 hour, Tony asked us to pick out the bad ones instead, and cut them off. Now that was the challenging task cause a lot of bad ones are bended and at the bottom of the bushes, so i had to bend a lot to cut them off. And along the way, both K and I were pricked by some wild thorns cause we didn't wear gloves. And also because Tony had told us there were no thorns on the leaves. Sure enough, there weren't. The torns came from somewhere else among the bushes. Not from the leaves we were picking.
At about 3pm, the sky started to turn cloudy, and it got really windy. I was cold, and my back was aching, and i wanted to go back. But we had to wait for Tony. He finally came about 4pm. We went back to the house. And K and I had our dinner. For me, it was the leftover subway, cookies and potato chips. That was at 5pm.
After dinner, we watched a bit of boring TV. Then K and i went into the bedroom and had our discussion. I told him i couldn't stand it anymore. I asked him why we are still living like that and suffering, when he is already so sure i am pregnant. He said before that if i was pregnant, we could spend all the money here and then go home. I broke down and cried. Because my back was aching, my dinner sucked.. My hands were sore, the bedroom was cold, and i was going to have another restless night cause i won't be able to sleep well in the cold and super soft (with no support) bed.
K started searching for paid accomodation elsewhere. We will most probably move out of this farm within the next few days. I am definitely not going to work on the farm anymore. And i told K we will not have any meals at the house anymore, in case Tony wants us to work to "repay" him for the meals.
I really hope this feeling inside me will fade away soon. There is only so much good food or good accomodation that I can get with my money, but i cannot change the weather. And i cannot get my favourite Singapore food here.
My stomach seems to be getting bigger, not sure if it's because i am getting fatter from eating bread and potatoes, or i am pregnant.. Still no symptoms yet though...
ARGGGHHHHH!!!!!
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